Archive for August, 2007
August 31, 2007
I am so grateful for the revelation of today – the weakness exposed and the belief reinstalled. =)
“Come, let us bow down in worship, let us kneel before the Lord our Maker; for he is our God and we are the people of his pasture, the flock under his care.” -Psalm 95:6-7
When I get to the end of life and am on my deathbed, I won’t want to gather up my BMW, my diplomas (if I had of received them), my money, I will only want to be surrounded by the people in my life.
“Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.” -Proverbs 22:6
Handwritten Notes
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August 30, 2007
This year is slowly slipping away and it has been the most confusing year of my life. When I read back over my old journals, I find that I thought about nothing but money most of the time. It seems that not much has changed. And I wonder about this. Has the obsession for money been one of my major failings? There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think of what I have or don’t have, how much I’m making and want to make in the future and if my business plan is adequate for what I want. Plus now every other day I change what I seem to want and how I want to go about it.
What do I really want to do, right now, this instant? I want to fly to Europe and get a job at a coffee shop and live in an apartment down the street and have a girlfriend and not think very much about responsibilities and duties.
Handwritten Notes
You know, I think its that I feel a little like a fraud. In Coastal, and in other work I’ve always inflated my earnings, I’ve pretended to own a BMW that wasn’t mine, bragged on my skill when it wasn’t there and I could get away with it. And I think all this has caused me not to believe in myself, and judge myself as a fraud on top of that.
What if I were to start all over again? I’ve got prepaid legal in front of me where it all started… I could begin again, with my priorities in better order, with better people skills, more wisdom, and then see where He directs me this time around. A chance for a fresh start? And I could do things right this time without trying to cut all corners. =) Could make it an experiment and track it. =)
August 29, 2007
“Of course there is no formula for success except perhaps an unconditional acceptance of life and what it brings.” -Arthur Rubinstein, pianist
“Then Ordinary had an idea. He climbed the scraggly tree to the top. From there, he could see Faith in the distance. As quickly as he could, he climbed down and set off in that same direction.
Later that same day, Ordinary was eating some fruit beside a trickle of water, when he saw his journey through the WasteLand in a whole new way.
Food enough for the day.
Water, when he needed to drink.
August 28, 2007
I wonder if I’m just subconsciously scared of the money or of the success and that’s why I shy away from prospecting. Maybe I feel like it will be an endless trap and I’ll never be able to get away from it. Maybe I know that I’ll do the same thing I did before: prospect for a month, make some sales, and then go right into internet marketing… whatever the reason, I resist prospecting. I have come up with three dozen excuses why I should not hope on the phone and just do it. And some of them are pretty good reasons too. Some of the them are completely legitimate as well.
But one thing is for certain, there is a belief inside of me that if I go to fast, try to get to the top overnight, that I’ll crash and burn out…
Maybe its just not good for me to go that fast into making the money – I think there is a deep fear within me about that. And when I think back to Lon’s sermon on money, I feel compelled to agree. I remember the story of the businessman who prayed for the wealth and for ten years the Lord just wouldn’t let him get there, no matter how hard he worked. Then when he received the wealth, he looked back and said, I thank God that He didn’t give this to me ten years ago. It would have gone to my head, made me haughty and arrogant, I would have misused it, I would have mistreated people and hurt myself and others. I’m so glad God didn’t give this to me ten years ago.
Dear Lord, please guide me in this time of starting this new business, in struggling with the idea of prospecting and getting started, in the decision with the apartment. Please guide my decisions and my heart and my actions that they would bring you glory. I feel like a complete disappointment right now. Please help me make it through. Please give me the strength.
I believe that if I did the right things with internet marketing, the website, the book, and any advertising, that I could get up to 30 sales a month. But this is probably a much slower growth curve than getting on the phone to make prospecting calls… Read the rest of this entry »
August 27, 2007
“You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.” -Isaiah 26:3
I must have thought through two dozen excuses this morning and last night about why I should not start prospecting. Amazing. It’s just fear that I’ve reached. All that is required is forward action.
“Go, eat your food with gladness, and drink your wine with a joyful heart, for it is now that God favors what you do. Always be clothed in white, and always anoint your head with oil. Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life that God has given you under the sun—all your meaningless days. For this is your lot in life and in your toilsome labor under the sun. whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the grave, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge or wisdom.” -Ecclesiastes 9:7-10
It is just these exact verses that make me wonder why I should be working. If this life it meaningless, then what point is there to trying to achieve success? Why not just go volunteer overseas with missionaries for the rest of my life?
“The person who accepts responsibility makes himself stand out from the others in an office, a factory or in any walk of life, and he is the one who gets ahead. Welcome responsibility. Do this in little things and in big things, and success will come to you.” -Dale Carnegie
